speak in codes
because i’m a mode of existence
and i insist
you resist
the urge to be written
i digress
and detest
every ache of every page
i filled books
and mistook
your happy endings
as mistakes
but mistakes
are not forevers
here’s the truth:
i’m better
and i’ll never apologize
because i’ve been kicking
and alive
and you’ve been killing so much time
like time deserved to die
and how many times have i
used that refrain
and how many times
has it read the same
and how many times
have you been there
reading over my shoulders
waiting for me
to spell your name
and you’ll get no satisfaction
not from me
not now
and not ever
so, here’s to you
i’m better
and i’m so much better
without your letters
making no sense
what-so-fucking-ever
JD Jurado © all rights reserved 2021
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